So, here I am. Don’t welcome me, and please don’t congratulate me for finally joining the blogosphere. This could, arguably, be one of the worst things I’ve ever done. But if I do this right… I might just come out of it okay. With luck and diligence, I might even be able to turn this into a Good Thing. Unfortunately, the diligence applied here is diligence not applied elsewhere, and there is a whole lot of “elsewhere” that is demanding my diligence right now. So why am I here, and why today?
Well, last night as I was drifting off to sleep, I decided that I could really throw myself into documenting my struggle for personal diligence, and that I would be inspired to “be the best me I can be” because I wouldn’t want to let my audience down. But the more I thought about it, the more I knew that it wouldn’t work — if I am to be the best me I can be, I have to do it for ME. And starting up a blog is certainly something that wouldn’t be good for my personal well-being.
So what other reasons (excuses) could I use to convince myself that starting up a blog is an okay idea? Well, there’s always the fact that I am so grateful to the other folks who have given great advice through their blogs, on everything from being productive to becoming an early riser. Maybe I could provide a unique perspective to others who are looking for ways to improve themselves, just like those thousands of other people who are doing the same thing!! ….or maybe not.
For a moment, I reminded myself of the day I joined as a wikipedia contributor. I was so excited that day, setting up my Userpage, getting an automatic log of any and all contributions I may make. Suddenly, it occurred to me that today is my one year anniversary of joining wikipedia!
And to celebrate, I decided there’s no better day than today for me to start a blog! Yippee for me!
I know that it’s really a horrible idea for me to get distracted by yet another online hobby. Not only is Wikipedia often dangerous for me to visit, but I am really obsessed with Guild Wars (and an unofficial wiki for the game), I’ve only recently gotten over my addiction to any of dozens of online forums, and my fascination with facebook has toned down to the point where I can log on and log back off within a matter of minutes. I’m also always in danger of becoming drawn into the tarpit that is my email inbox (though hopefully, I will soon develop the habits that allow me to enjoy perpetual “inbox zero” bliss). But maybe this will be different! *big toothy grin* Maybe I’ll actually be able to draw myself away instead of being drawn in deeper and deeper, farther away from my goals?
Maybe the trick is to keep talking about my goals, and my diligence, and oh, perhaps something like limiting myself to just one entry per day. Or just fifteen minutes. And any time I start getting a bad feeling about how I’m not doing what I should be doing, JUST GO DO SOMETHING I SHOULD BE DOING, DAMNIT! (As in, now.)